I think my current lack of motivation is due to a couple of factors. I thought I would take the time to write out everything that is on my mind. Sorry for the wall of text.
1) I hate my current laptop.
It was not designed to be used for five years and it is literally falling apart. The fan blows so loud that it has actually woken people up. It overheats SO easily too. Yesterday, it blue-screened every time I tried to start it up and finally stopped once we turned my girlfriend’s laptop’s Bluetooth off.
Luckily for me, I’m getting a 2 grand MSI gaming laptop soon so this issue is only temporary. This laptop is going to help me out SO much. 3d rendering capability is going to be ridiculously better. It will have over a terabyte of hard drive space and will also have a solid state drive to boot from.
2) I have no current project.
The main way to get myself motivated, I have found, is to rally my efforts with a game project that I am really interested in. Currently, I do not have a project to work on. I do however, have three projects I have been thinking about:
The first is a road rage game that came about from countless joke about running people over while in the car with my girlfriend. I would make jokes like “2 x combo” if two people were walking across the road or “group bonus” if it was 3 or more. This got me thinking about a road rage game where you get points by running people over. combos could amass by purposely hitting people with the same colour shirt or hat or something. You could unlock extra vehicles by doing stuff too. Maybe add some trick jump elements. I’m drawing a lot of inspiration from Midtown Madness 3 which i played on the original Xbox. A bigger emphasis on running people over though.
The second is a combination of Dwarf Fortress, The Sims, Black and White, and Virtual Villagers. You take a tribe of villagers through different missions, things like collecting food for winter, destroying a neighbouring tribe, reaching a population goal, ect. As the tribe’s god, you would be responsible for their well-being and survival. much like Black and White you can place new buildings, give the tribes people different roles/jobs, and help with expansion. Each tribe member would have a set of needs, similar to the sims. This game needs a lot more thought though.
The third game is the most recent idea. This idea came about while playing Zoo Tycoon 2. Essentially, I want to make a zoo tycoon game but instead of humans looking at caged animals, it would be aliens looking at caged humans. You could take the UFO out and abduct people to add to your zoo. Once in the holding bay, you have to make enclosures for them on your space station, fill them with items for their survival, all while balancing your income and getting money from tourist aliens. I am also drawing big influences from Sim Theme Park.
3) Uni is smothering me
Uni is really stressful right now. I just got through my mid semester work, but in a month’s time, things will be travelling toward end of semester exams. Two of the units I am currently taking, I failed last year. I CANNOT fail them again.
4) life stress
I am currently looking for work, and for a place to live with my girlfriend. This is one of the biggest stresses in my life right now.
On a good note, tomorrow is my one year anniversary with Kelly. I’ve never made it this far before with a partner. I am a very happy lad :)
So what can I do to fix this?
well, next week is my mid semester break so I will have all week to work on a game. I should also have my new laptop by then. I don’t think I will work on one of the three ideas I gave above. instead, I want to complete a top down plane shooter in that week. Kind of like a week long game jam :)